I can't believe this is my life. I feel like I'm watching a film of someone with a normal life and I'll have to go back to mine at some point.

Last night my ten year old daughter came up to my office to harrass my 22 year old best friend. She threw paper clips at him, poked him in the back and told him he doesn't look smart in a suit. She also gave him and my other friend poems she'd written for them and swung round a lot in the swivel chair.

Then we went to visit a friend of mine. Her dad rang and arranged to pick her up from nearby so I stayed at my friend's and chatted. It felt amazing just being somewhere I wanted to be, with no-one hassling me. Admittedly my son was a bit pissed off when I got in and said he hadn't eaten all day, but he's 15 and should be able to sort himself out. We still haven't got a cooker, but there's a microwave and I bought various strange microwaveable things. Microwave food is really shit isn't it? What are those microwave chips all about?? Who could ever want a serving of about seven chips?

My friend's ex, father of her youngest, died recently and, apparently, they cleared out his house and threw away masses of furniture and stuff, I could have kitted out my whole house. I kind of wish she hadn't told me. Ah well, I'll get sorted when my tax credits and child benefit eventually come through.

Anyway, the main point is that I could stay out, without anyone ringing me and getting arsey. It seems unbelievable.

My husband sent my ten year old back after 11 o'clock on the train. This isn't acceptable, but I'm not sure what I can do about it. There's a lot of stuff I still need to iron out, but yeah, life feels amazing right now