My cat's gone missing. I feel awful because I was the one who shoved him unceremoniously into a cat carrier and brought him here.
We've been here a week and a half now and he seemed to be settling in. But we've got a wood and fields at the back with wild rabbits, and probably foxes. And he might have got lost or been targetted by unsavoury young people or run over or anything.
Or he could be injured and unable to get home. But we'll very likely never know. My 18 year old daughter's heartbroken, the 10 year old doesn't fully understand the implications yet, she just knows he didn't come home yesterday. My son's got a GCSE today and he was out last night so he doesn't realise yet.
I hate the fact of having to deal with all their individual griefs. Then there's my 2 older sons in London and Korea.
Other than that things are minly good. My husband persuaded me to give him £110 for the phone bill and tv license installments and cat flea spray. I arranged for him to come to my place of work to get it, then he rang and said he was too tired and I'd have to take it to him. I know, I'm an idiot. I don't have any money now, my tax credits still haven't got sorted, and my daughter's been invited to a party on Sunday so I'll have to get a present.
But being in our new house is so good, and the kids are starting to calm down - years of living with stress takes a bit of undoing. And it was my birthday yesterday. A girl at work bought me lunch in the pub and everyone was really nice. And the kids got me lovely things, a mascara I really wanted, a dinner service (white with square plates - how rad is that eh?)and a model fairy with pink shiny trainers for my desk. And my brother sent me a dvd - The Big Lebowski.
And my line manager refused to believe I was anywhere near 50, so I had to tell her I'm 55. And I felt loved by everyone. Which is always good.
I should be back online at home next week, which means I won't have to do this illicitly at work, along with answering all my emails and generally trying to run my life on my employer's time!